I am a Healer, Psychologist, educator and Sound Therapist with an avid interest in consciousness and transpersonal experiences. Oh and did I mention Astrology?
All Hallows Eve
It is barely half past four in the afternoon and already darkness encroaches. It has been a wild day with squally showers and I am truly grateful that I have a warm dry home.
The skies here are sullen but not threatening. My prayers, along with so many others, have been directed to those in the path of the hurricane which has swept devastation across the Carribean Islands and eastern coast of America. It will take weeks before these places return to any form of normality. One hopes that the message that we are all interdependent takes root amongst the few who still hold on to old paradigms of 'survival of the fittest' and 'the winner takes all'. We can no longer survive in a separatist world.
Separate from what and from whom one may well ask. Tonight of all nights that is a particularly good question as we celebrate the thinning of the veils between the worlds - those of this so called reality and those of the greater dimensions that operate just beyond our five senses but can be tuned into by anyone who has consciously developed their sixth sense.
It is a time to remember our ancestors, a time to give thanks for the harvest and the positive things that have happened during the year and also a time to start to look deeply inwards and reflect. As the season now slips into winter our inner worlds become as real, alert and alive as the expansive outer world that we inhabit during the long days and warm nights.
Tonight be thankful for all that has made you who you are today and celebrate the goodness around you. Spooky as it might sound, be aware that the ancestors know your path and are watching over you. Don't forget to thank them for their support and guidance!
Every time I think nothing is happening so a little ray of light shines through the window of my mind...
I have often felt like I have been treading water this year. In comparison to many that is a good thing since there is a generalised feeling that we are all drowning in an economic disaster zone where politics is no longer a dialogue but an imposed regime of cutbacks and hardship for those already at their limit. Sabre rattling continues across the globe and many are reaching the end of their tether, possibly whipped up by clandestine groups and influences in an undercurrent of disturbing unrest and rising anger.
I have indeed been fortunate in that I am not drawn into those scenarios and have the space and time to attend to matters of a higher level. None the less it has not been an easy year by any means. Attempting to go it alone and leap into the unknown in many respects has been both rewarding and frustrating. The one step forward, two steps back syndrome has accompanied me all the way (see previous blog Timing and Intention).
Today there is a full moon in the sign of Taurus. This signifies a time to contemplate what still needs to be done and what just amounts to wasted effort. Taurus gives the ability to persevere to the point of bullishness but is also practical and tactical in its approach. With the sun in Scorpio it is the season of sifting through old habits and paradigms and settling on giving our energy only to the projects that add deep meaning and a sense of purpose to our lives.
With this in mind I shall be sticking to my 'bigger picture' project but being very aware that the paths that lead to it meander and often turn off in quite unexpected directions. Remaining open to opportunity whilst being vigilant and using discernment about what is likely to be a dead end, I shall keep plodding on relentlessly constantly on the look out for that little ray of light to guide my way.
Timing and Intention
Having spent the majority of this year setting intentions for my Healing work I have of course come across many hurdles and disappointments. This is 'normal' and yet it is also within our grasp to overcome such stop-start hiccups.
I have in mind here the belief that our thoughts do indeed become things. As I vacillate between the old and the new paradigms within which I have operated and intend to function in future, so my life becomes more convoluted and mysterious. The one step forward, two steps back syndrome dominates. I should rather be focusing on the one step forwards being the one small step that starts the journey of a thousand miles to paraphrase the Toaist saying.
I believe that there are two time scales colliding and it is this influence that causes the most upset. Our own inner world is totally under the influence of our thoughts. Most of those are based on unconscious, or at best subconscious, habits and reactions to life and as such are both spawned and born of the past, holding us in obsolete, outworn patterns. As we work to break these habits and inculcate new more adaptable and updated versions so we face fears of letting go as well as excitement about future prospects. These contradictory thoughts and actions need to be harnessed if the personal world is to change by our own volition. This all takes place in a timescale that we can dictate by consciously embracing our beliefs.
However there is also the timescale of the Universal. This is based on a far grander scheme of things - the bigger picture etc. On this level our own paths become somewhat subject to world or societal needs. Our hopes and wishes come to fruition at the point they are desired by our immediate environment. In this respect we are children of our times. Whilst the Universe per se does not judge or question, it does 'react' to the thoughts that we have and thus provides us with the experiences we need to grow and learn, fitting them to the requirements of those around us. Being in tune with this level of activity is the key to moving forward. As we doubt ourselves so the Universe provides more of the same, seemingly blocking our path. As we grow in self confidence so events unfold which give us the opportunity to exercise that new sense of self-belief. We are challenged to practice on a new level. The reward is that our inner 'knowing' grows and blossoms accordingly.
When we attune ourselves to go with the flow, there is no longer a need to direct and orchestrate our lives. Indeed life becomes a free flowing river which we can easily navigate, despite the boulders, torrents, tides and endless tributaries along the way. The word 'decision' becomes obsolete as we just 'know' what to do and when to do it. When our intentions are in accord with the timing of the Universe, there is no looking back - unless to honour the journey!
Avoidance and Abundance
I was contemplating avoidance as a totally ingrained practice that we all seem to have mastered above and beyond its true value! Indeed it is the cause of so much lack and loss in life. Not daring to go beyond the narrow confines of the familiar, we miss out on so many opportunities - people and events that could rapidly transform us and accelerate our personal growth and evolution.
It seemed to me that the word 'avoidance' expresses:
"a dance we do around a void created
in order to ignore the calling of our hearts to open"
We avoid things that we do not wish to face up to. The longer we practice avoidance the harder it is to see the situation clearly or dream up a solution, let alone gain the strength to physically carry out the necessary actions. The impetus to act is smoothered by our fears. Yet once we muster the courage to overcome our self doubts we automatically empower ourselves. The world is changed by our endeavours and life takes on new meaning. We also inspire others in the course of our day by avoiding avoidance!
Abundance (generally defined as plentiful, possessing more than sufficient) on the other hand is a very different beast in today's climate. Many seem to be fired by a desire to grasp what they can from others, eagerly clutching at so called wealth and material possessions as a form of security. Presently we seem to have
"a dance created around celebrating enough personal 'dough' in one's life,
to have your bun/cake and eat it!"
At least this would be the interpretation in a world dominated by financial concerns and constraints. Whilst we are caught in this sticky web of deceit and lies by a system that only appears to serve the 'bun dancers' right now, things are changing.
"Something's afoot" said the reflexologist, and rightly so. Many people are on the move across the globe; dancing to a different tune, the drum beat is getting louder. The feet on the street are growing in numbers as ever more corruption and betrayal comes to light. Those propping up the old paradigms and status quo which disempowers the many can no longer practice avoidance of the issues raised by a closed heart and are being questioned about the source of their personal abundance.
I believe there is a new age dawning in which abundance we can all share in is the norm, a world where avoidance will no longer be the counterpart to this beautifully choreographed life we are all born to live.
And Now It has Fallen Silent...
As a feather alighting on snow
The events of today
No sound, no impression.
A bleak emptiness.
Neither beckoning nor lingering
The body of life
Once so warm to the touch.
You have left, to do
What has to be done
It has fallen silent.
De - LIGHT - full
I have been somewhat overwhelmed by the amazing events that have occurred in my life over the last 10 days. A new energy has taken root and I am feeling the buzz.
An American friend of mine is staying with me. She is a professional astrologer.
Glenna Bain www.seeingheartastrology.net
The evening after her arrival Saturn moved into Scorpio and then Mars moved into Sagittarius. We have many links in our personal charts which means we barely have to speak to understand each other. There is a beautiful synchronicity in our needs and total accord in our values. Despite that we have been chatting incessantly about the energies of the present times we live in and how we are handling these personally.
With the focus on Scorpio and Pluto in the collective charts right now, these conversations have taken us deep into the roots of our belief systems and resultant behavioural patterns. Lifting these out of the myre, just as Hercules had to do with the hydra, has been monumentous. Old patterns are in the process of breaking down not only in the world around us but in our inner worlds too. It is wonderful to share on this level at a time that feels like we are being 'rebooted' and uploading new 'programmes' to serve us for the future.
I use this computer analogy as Uranus, which rules technology and electric energies, is playing a major role in this melting pot and demanding rapid responses and inventive solutions.
I am also learning 'Americanisms' and instead of saying "h'mmm, it's not bad" in the good old British way, my new expression is "Wow, that's delightful!"
The Matrix of Reality
Perhaps inspired by the film 'The Matrix', perhaps inspired by the 'observer effect' in quantum mechanics or the book "The Diary of a Reluctant Messiah" by Richard Bach... whichever, what ever...
There was a familiarity to this strangeness as if I had been here before but not in this lifetime.
"Deja vue?" I hear you ask.
No, not that feeling. To me that is the sense that you are lucid dreaming where the whole event is happening with a clear split between being an observer of, yet simultaneously an actor in the scene. Those events are short and spark a very different reaction. This was happening slowly, surely, towards a nemesis that seemed preordained. I did not know how or why I ended up here. Yes, here of all places.
Had I literally dreamt it up and created all that surrounded me? Anything is possible if one believes. I understood this law inside out but fear had prevented me from activating the phenomenon. An innate ability which I knew existed within the confines of my mortal existence. I could shape time and so called reality at will with just a thought - this must be it then!
I blinked and had another thought and so it was. Changed, everything, even the colour of the sky. Ah, so easy! All at my command, and no drugs required!
We all need permission, we all seek permission. Simple permission to be ourselves, more importantly to be true to ourselves. Without that permission we flail around acting out someone else's reality, someone else's dream, someone else's restricted sense of self.
What is this desire to conform, to fit in, to perform, to deliver, to be accepted and acceptable even when we know the so called truth is a lie and the action immoral? Lemmings and sheep, so we follow blindly, for to take issue is to take responsibility and step outside the parameters and paradigms of the comfort zone of the familiar.
We are social animals on one level but are also soul - full beings on another. Part of us wishes to enact the physical desires on the material plane whilst an unspoken yearning gnaws at us. Memories float to the surface of consciousness inflicting the pain of a remembrance lost; true union unconditional and a knowing beyond space-time.